It’s absolutely beautiful, which is why I think it creates this huge hole in my heart. This massive fear of missing out. I’ve never felt so distant and disconnected with others in a similar life stage.
Medical education is a rollercoaster of emotions. Here is a little update on where we are in the residency and fellowship application process.
Andrew & I are always looking for ways to grow as a couple. When we first started dating and were long distance, we would buy two copies of a book & read it “together” from afar. It was SO attractive to me that he was open to new ideas, personal development and relationship growth. At the start of our relationship, we were both coming out of rocky situations. Andrew went through infidelity, leading to divorce, and I had just had my wedding called off by my significant other. Because of our history, we weren’t taking the relationship thing lightly.
I can’t relate to this. My heart does not long to be a mother. Never once have I thought to myself, “I want to be a mother.” Never. Period. That thought has never crossed my mind. Don’t get me wrong, I have hypothetically said “our kids” in conversations with my husband, but that longing feeling of wanting a child has never been in my heart.
On February 28th, 2019, I married the love of my life at our local courthouse. The stress and pressure of planning our destination wedding has been immense, but this day was so casual, intimate and sweet. From start to finish the day was absolutely perfect and full of so much love.
This has been on my heart to share for a couple weeks as people kept asking us why we were getting married three months before our destination wedding. Our most common response was, “You have to get married in the United States before your destination wedding, and courthouse weddings only happen during the week. Andrew had a random Thursday off of his crazy schedule, so we picked that day.” That entire statement is true, but why three months before the “actual” wedding celebration? I’ll get there, I promise.
Ever since I was in high school, I wanted to find someone who would stick by my side. Not because they had to, but because they wanted to. Life had taught me that people always leave. Friends, family, my own father… People were always leaving and I felt so alone.
I know, I know, so many of you despise this holiday, but if I’m being honest, I love it. From the silly Valentine’s day boxes and cards in elementary school to coming up with something extra special for my future husband, I’ve always found the holiday charming.
This one is for all the hearts out there wondering if love will ever find them. I want to share my story (thus far) with you. Not to cheer on my own happy, new beginning, but to give you a glimpse into the REAL side of my life & love.
If you have been following along for awhile on my Instagram account @thoughtfullythrifted you have probably read some of my vague posts about me having to sell my house and downsize to an apartment.