It is exhilarating and refreshing to no longer run from yourself. The ability to embrace yourself, your flaws, your desires, and your being is insanely powerful.

Andrew & I are always looking for ways to grow as a couple. When we first started dating and were long distance, we would buy two copies of a book & read it “together” from afar. It was SO attractive to me that he was open to new ideas, personal development and relationship growth. At the start of our relationship, we were both coming out of rocky situations. Andrew went through infidelity, leading to divorce, and I had just had my wedding called off by my significant other. Because of our history, we weren’t taking the relationship thing lightly.

I can’t relate to this. My heart does not long to be a mother. Never once have I thought to myself, “I want to be a mother.” Never. Period. That thought has never crossed my mind. Don’t get me wrong, I have hypothetically said “our kids” in conversations with my husband, but that longing feeling of wanting a child has never been in my heart.

Never in a million years did I expect to be marrying a man like you. A man who is grounded, faithful, intelligent, caring, loving, and not to mention, handsome. Oh, the list is a mile long, and I’ll love you always, even though you have very stinky feet.

I know, I know, so many of you despise this holiday, but if I’m being honest, I love it. From the silly Valentine’s day boxes and cards in elementary school to coming up with something extra special for my future husband, I’ve always found the holiday charming.

I’ve been wanting to share this story for a long time. Andrew and I met on a double date. And no, we were not there with each other. You see, I was engaged to be married and Andrew WAS married when we met.

I can’t believe it has already been two months since our engagement! Where in the hell does time go? Back in July, Andrew and I had started planning weekly dates as advised by my amazing life coach (more on her and that experience coming soon). We alternate back and fourth on who plans the date. It was mid-august and Andrew’s week to plan the date.

This one is for all the hearts out there wondering if love will ever find them. I want to share my story (thus far) with you. Not to cheer on my own happy, new beginning, but to give you a glimpse into the REAL side of my life & love.